Basically i started my blog as a way to deal with the pain of being loved and left and the pain of dealing with my eating disorder. All of it came from an extreme break up between me and my bestfriend. We were really bestfriends and we really fell in love with eachother but he didnt want me anymore for various reasons that didnt have anything to do with me. But at the time i thought it was all me, i thought that everything was my fault and the only ways i could get rid of the void he made was by binging and purging or by writing poetry. I used to be fat and i started to drop too much weight after he hurt me, i wouldnt eat more than X amount of calories a day and i was so unhappy it was unbearable. I lost everything i ever had and after a while i just became straight bulimic, i became addicted to drugs and i thought my life was going no where. I ended up in a partial hospitilizaton program that saved my life and like anyone with an ED i relapsed afterward, but recently i have been getting my life together. Recovery is so worth it.I have never been happier. I still deal with pain and feelings like any other person but now they are in the right ways. I love being happy, it beats the shit out of being depressed. So basically my blog is a tribute to who i used to be and who i want to be.
